laying your heart out

so when you want something really bad and you just cant have it what is the next step or thing to do....and i don't mean in a job related way....saying this because....well pretty much the title of this post sums it up for me...i cant get her out of my mind she just feels perfect...every quality is prefect...her smile...the way she talks to me the way she looks at me...i just cant get her out of me and tell her all that and hearing back that i cant be with her break my heart i know it may sound stupid to you but i am a sensitive guy i don't show it because i hide it really well but i have feelings and it sux everything i do, see , hear it always makes me think of her why do things have to be like this...i know i should be with her and that with her everything is right i know this my not make sense and you might be like what the f**k are you talking about but she is perfect in my world and i will always like her and much more i wish i could say that four letter word to her but i know i would be lying to my self and her if i told her that........i just needed to get some stuff off my chest i think i probably will be blogging about this subject for awhile....i just wish things could work out and i can be with her!